Coming out of second-wave in the UK must feel good and sure it does. But we are reliving it all over again with the second wave ongoing in India. I am preoccupied all the time. The mind is always thinking about India and the news on Whatsapp. It is scary to open the phone in the morning. The heaviness on the chest just does not lift off. It feels as if a deep breath is just not possible. There is no freedom from Covid it seems.
To keep positive in such times is very difficult. It is difficult to even speak to people. I don’t want to interact with anybody. I go to work and try to be as cheerful as I can but my head forever seems to be split between work and phone. I feel like my phone at reception but I cant people there need us. There are messages from cousins and friends who need immediate help and have nowhere to turn to for genuine advice.
Nowadays when I go on a walk I am constantly chanting my mantras and praying to God to save the lives of people from this dreadful virus. I am optimistic about the vaccine and really hope it will put an end to this pandemic. We all need some normalcy to return to our lives. Our happiness needs to be back.