ME meaning myself. I think it is important to understand myself. I can cry at happiness, sadness, anger, conflict or whichever emotion you bring to the table. Even as a child I was the same. People, sometimes, would laugh at the things I would cry at. I started analysing it. Depression, anxiety, stress, post trauma, none of it would fit in. I found out about HSP.
HSP meaning Highly Sensitive Person. Everything fits in with that. It is a personality trait. Not an illness. I am sensitive to things more than other people. That can be both positive and negative. It makes me a more empathic person, which, for my profession is definitely a good trait to have.
I have cried in meetings where I can’t express myself during a conflict. I don’t like it when I can’t speak clearly for myself or defend my points. Probably frustration brings out my emotions, but in the first place it is generally conflict that makes my tears come on. I cant retaliate meaningfully. Good thing is that most meetings are online now and I can put the camera off.
HSP gives a name to my issues and it makes me feel better that it is a recognised thing. I discussed this with some friends and they all felt, they have been very similar in their life too. I have felt relieved to think that we are not mentally ill. Emotional but happy bunch of friends is what we are.
Have a great weekend and look after yourselves.